Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Giving thanks

This holiday season I have plenty to be thankful for. What I'm most thankful for at this time is my new family. They've been a part of my life for years, but I can officially call them family. I love that I've been accepted as a son. Not only did I gain a mother and father in-law, but a sister-in-law. I'm so blessed to have them in my life. Of course they wouldn't be family without my beautiful wife. So thanks for including me into your family!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Maybe

I'm not exactly sure what happened, but I've been motivated lately. For some time I have felt like a bum. I have not felt the push to be productive. Maybe it took me just making the decision to do something of value with my time. Maybe it'sthe fact that I'm a husband and I feel the need to be a better man for my wife. Maybe it's because I want to be more than just a pretty face in the crowd:-) That would be more difficult since I made the decision to let my beard grow until I get a certain project done. Maybe listening to Matt's album just reinforced my desire to do something great with my time. Whatever the reason I'm thankful for that kick the butt. I say let's all take our maybe's and do something great.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Matt's Music

Just a lazy Sunday afternoon. Last night we went to dinner downtown. Taking the train and getting a wheelchair accessible taxi has grown easier for us. This was our seconf excursion doing so this year. Having my electric wheelchair is even more freeing. I see us doing this even more next year. Well, being as it is just a lazy day I'm just onthe computer doing not much really. I am listening to Matt Mc Graw's album. His cousins took what Matt had done before he died and finished the project. Matt would be proud. When I listen to the music I want to be better. All my dreams I want to push harder to have them be realized. Matt, your speaking even a year after your death. Your music is speaking. I miss you brother!

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Accepting & Acknowledging

Last night Emily worried a sorority of women educators. Her mpther has been a part of this group for quite some time. This morning as I was working out and Emily was getting ready for work she mentioned that one of the ladies from last night made mention of the fact that her husband also has multiple sclerosis and he goes to a support group. When she told me that she then asked if I would want to go to a support group? I quickly responded with a resounding "No!" As is usually the case I thought about what I said after the fact. Why was I so quick to say no? Talking with otherr people battling the same things I am might be a good thing. I asked her what she knew and if she would find out more. I told Emily why I responded so quickly with a 'no". Going to a groip would be accepting I have MS. I really thought I had, but really just acknowledged the phrase "I have MS". I guess I'm working my waythrough the stages of grief to acceptance still.