Thursday, September 25, 2008

Three years

Emily and I have been to gather three years today. We've been through so much during this time. Some crazy, some sad, some happy. I'm glad I've gone through it with her by my side. I love her so much. I look towards our wedding day and can do nothing but smile. I love you with all the pieces of my heart!

This is me

I'm different than the person I used to be. When I'm alone I don't feel any different, but I know I am. I don't see too good, my hearing is not that great, and my speech is slow. I haven't found my comfort level with being around others yet. I thought I had. Last night I realized I had not. It was time for me to go to Bible study and I started to freak out. Thinking about having to talk in front of people and not being able to hear everything, I got myself worked up to the point of not feeling well. I ended up not going. Talking with Emily about everything I broke down. She is so good to me. We talked through everything. She said I won't feel accepted by every one until I accept myself. So that's my goal to be fully comfortable with myself. Emily made me realize it's all on me. Have I gone somewhere and people pointed and laughed? No. Has anyone made fun of me because of how I talk now? No. Have I fallen out of my wheelchair in front of people? (Except for that one time she dumped me out on the street) No. Get over yourself! I know I've battled this for some time, but I feel like I've had little bit of a break through.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Last night's Bible study

New situations always stress me out a little bit. Being uncertain of my surroundings, and how people will be around me. Looking back I know it's stupid to feel that way, I guess I must not be fully comfortable with myself yet. I've grown more comfortable with where I am and am almost there, but. at least went. Anyway, there were over 80 people there last night. The organizers had stated when they were first planning this they had hoped for around 20. It was cool to see this large group and their hunger to grow deeper in their faith. After watching the video introduction of this eight week Bibles study we split up into smaller groups. I enjoyed being in a smaller group and really hearing where every one was in their knowledge of the Bible. I did feel a little out of place when everyone introduced themselves and what Parish they attend. Being as I'm not Catholic I didn't have a name to share. I could have said St. Emily I guess, :-)! Either way I'm glad I went. I felt challenged to dig in and start reading the Word. I'm nervous that I won't, but hopefully fear of looking stupid in our small groups will be enough to get started. Emily's parents, Steven and Nancy were very gracious and helping me get around and introducing me to people. Thanks guys!

Monday, September 15, 2008

Where was Noah?

We looked, but couldn't find him.
On Saturday I had a ticket to the Sox game and with Friday's washout was ready to go see a doubleheader. I think God had other plans as both games were rained out. We'll just have to use our tickets on another game now. With Sunday came the clearing of the skies and excitement for the Bears game. All I can say about that is I'd rather listen to Kyle Orton talk about a loss then hear Rex Grossman come up with another excuse. After that game I thought it would've been a lost weekend. Thankfully the White Sox did play and won both games. Hopefully they can widen their lead over the Twins this week. While I am a devout White Sox fan, I'm not a Cubs hater. Although I hated ESPN for interrupting the Sox game, it was exciting to see Carlos Zambrano's no-hitter. So I'd say baseball rescued the weekend on Sunday.

On tap for this week: Emily and I will be getting our engagement photo taken at Fred Fox Tuesday and Wednesday I'll be going to Bible study with Emily's mom. Most weeks I don't get out of the house until the weekend, so this will be a busier week for me.

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

Conquer Chiari

Not sure what Chiari is, go here to learn more. A friend of mine has been battling this for some time now. It kills me to hear about her struggles. So I'm going to do my part by keeping her in my prayers and help shed light on this disease. Conquer chiari is not only a statement, but a website to inform about this disease and help raise funds for further research. Also, they are trying to make September chiari awareness month as a national event. Right now a few states have adopted this. I don't claim to know that much about the disease or of the struggles, but want to support my friend Becky in the battle.

Thursday, September 04, 2008

Making Strides

An old high school friend of mine participates in the American Cancer society's Making Strides Against Breast Cancer. Her mother has been cancer free for eight years now, and she walks in honor of her. I've seen the negative affects of cancer, that's what my father died from 6 years ago. Also, my mom and my sister Rhonda have battled their way through different types of cancers. . So I ask you if cancer has touched your life in one way or the other or you just want to do your part in this crazy world and you're able to do so please donate to this worthy cause. A link to my friends team "In The Pink" is available to donate through them.

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

September 2, 1941

My dad would have been 67 years old today. He passed away on June 17, 2002. My family and I will never forget that date. But today I always look back fondly over the time I had with him. He taught me so much: how to be a man, always forgive, how to love (actions speak louder than words), determination goes a long way. Those are just a few of the examples he left behind. Yes, I am sad he's gone, but I am thankful I got to have him in my life for 23+ years. I just hope I keep living life by the examples left behind.