Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Blah, Blah

I figured with Emily going back to work after the summer break would be just what I needed. So far I'd say I was wrong. I am trying to get into a routine, to no avail at this point. Feeling as dry as I do I tried reading a book to get me jumpstarted, but only got a couple of chapters in before setting it down. Now I've been working with Photoshop and learning the intricacies of that hoping that will get my brain going again. I'm just taking the philosophy of writing what I know. I have scheduled a couple of White Sox games next month with my good friend and groomsman Garret. Maybe getting out of the house will be just what I need? Either way it can't be bad. Especially if the White Sox make the playoffs. On that note I'm out for now, I'll let you know what helped get me out of this blah state.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Bible Study

Here in a few weeks I'll be going to a Bible study with Emily's mother every Wednesday night for a couple of months. I don't usually get out of the house without Emily, but we both enjoy the times I can do so. Years ago I used to be heavily involved in church and was always into Bible study. Over the last few years Bible study has been a foreign subject to me. Sure I get my doses of Bible and church via Joel Osteen on TV and my home churhc CLC's webast about every week. But I'm excited and kind of nervous to open a Bible and dig in a little bit. We'll see how things go. No matter what it'll be good to get out of the house and get back in to a little bit of the good word.

On another note I get to watch my niece Grace for a few hours tomorrow. I've always been a little nervous to do so, but Carmen entrusted me to do so two weeks ago. Things went phenomenal. Grace is four years old so we watched cartoons and had a little bit to eat. Time flew by and my confidence soared. Going into tomorrow I am not nervous at all but just excited to hang out with my niece. And then on Thursday I have an appointment with my neurologist in the city. This will be my sister Kims' first time taking me to an appointment since her beautiful daughter Bianca qas born. So let's hope she remembers what she's doing with helping me in and out of her car.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

It is what it is

Thursday the 14th Emily goes back to work and we can get back into a normal routine. I hadn't planned on taking off this long from blogging but I guess I needed it. I figured with her going back it was time for me to get back too. This summer has been great! I've always liked traveling, and this summer was a good springboard to future farther travels. We first went to Indianapolis for a long weekend to celebrate my buddy Joshs' wedding. Next, we traveled up to Minnesota to go to the Mayo clinic. Not only was it cool to be in Minnesota for the first time, but being up there and hearing what they had to say was just what I needed to kick my butt into gear and just live. I've been trying to do that. In October we will be taking a trip to Nashville, Tennessee to partake in my friend Adrians' wedding. So for not traveling since 2005 this has been a good year for getting on the road again.

Saturday night Emily and I went to one of her friends weddings in Homer Glen. After getting dressed up and getting to the car I felt horrible. I was having a hard time with the wheelchair and transferring into the car. So in typical kid fashion I threw a fit. I didn't want to go, I stressed about being a limp noodle and an adult bobble head. Finally mustering enough strength and with Emilys' help I got into the car. Once Emily was able to get into the car I complained some more. And once on the road she had some words to share. "It is what it is" she said to me. What if you are a limp noodle, bobble head! No one cares. It doesn't bother her or those around me. It came down to me fearing what others thought of me. I've been that way my whole life. After talking about it, I decided to go in to the wedding and let what ever happens happen. During dinner my shaky hand took and I spilled soup on my shirt a few times, but I did not let it phase me. When the salad and entrée showed up my hands and head were still shaky , but I just pushed through and ate. Every one at the table was not pointing and laughing at me. It did not phase any of them. In fact quite the opposite, we were all laughing and having a good time. Upon leaving I felt like I had taken another step. Emily and I are both stubborn people, but I'll give her this one. It felt good to not care about my preconceived ideas of how people will react. Boy, it feels good to live without undo stress. So this is how it feels to be free!