Friday, December 29, 2006

A look back on '06

As I was going over my goals for 2007, I found myself reflecting on 2006. What a year! I'm looking back on '06 as a year of thanks. Here is a list of things I'm thankful for.
  • I'm alive: In January I became deathly ill and no find myself a far way from there.
  • That God loves me: I was raised to believe this, but going through the toughest year of my life, I really felt His love and saw it in a tangible way.
  • Good friends/family: Everyone showed love with either flowers, cards/e-mails, visits, or phone calls, and tons of prayers.
  • Great girlfriend: Emily came into my life just a few months before I became real sick and stepped up to help when I needed it the most. Not only did she give the physical help, but she gave me tons of emotional support. She means the world to me and I love her with all my heart.
  • To find out more about myself:I never knew how strong I was mentally or spiritually until I had to face the toughest battle of my life. I've just kept digging deeper and deeper and keep finding the strength to persevere.
  • Doctors/nurses/therapists: Thank you to the doctors and nurses that treated me and believed I would get better when things looked bleak. And thank you to the therapists that pushed me to work harder when I didn't know if I had any more to give.
  • My sister: For all the appointments you've taken me to, the endless hours of research, and taking control of crankshafts. I wish everyone could have someone like you on their side, you're the best, THANKS!
  • Finding my emotions again; When my father died in 2002 I felt like my emotions (except anger) died with him. I never grieved his passing, but this year I did that. I can cry again and truly laugh again.
  • And finally for 2007!

Enjoy the passing of the old and look forward to the new. Happy New Year!

Saturday, December 23, 2006


Yesterday I had an appointment with my nuerologist in Chicago. I haven't seen her since August. She had me do some physical tests to see what has gotten better/worse or stayed the same. Everything she checked from length strength to coordination to my vision all got better. Which this was really confusing for her, she doesn't know how I got better without treatment for MS. Of course no doctor will fully admit they don't know or they were wrong. Yesterday was really good for me mentally. Not only to see shock on a doctors face, but hanging with my sister, she was a real encouragement I've had some depressing days over the last couple of months and I feel as if I broke through that slump finally. I've been speaking life into my situation again and truly am convinced my walking days are right around the corner. On top of all of this in the mail today I received my handicap parking placard. It was a temporary one which is good for 6 months, thats the way my doctor filled it out not as a permenant. It was very cool to me, Dr. Hope is the one doctor to believe in me and knows I'm gonna walk again. The 6 month placard just lifted my spirits even more, that even my doctor thinks that walking is right around the corner. Being the holiday season and a time for miracles let's all believe for the miraculous in our lives. I hope everyone has a merry christmas and a truly great start to the new year!

Thursday, December 14, 2006


I've been lucky enough to have traveled overseas a few times; Africa, England, Germany, Italy. I've had to cancel a trip to Greece and had planned on going to Torrino, Italy for the Olympics, but my health had gotten worse. So I've had my next trip destination planned for quite awhile. My plan is when I get back on my feet I will go to Spain with a few of my buddies. My good friend Bob and I have talked about this trip for awhile. For my birthday he gave me a Rick Steve's guide to Spain and a poster with a Spanish theme. There are many motivating factors for me to get back on my feet, but these gifts have given me a renewed vigor. Sometimes it's the little things that are most needed. So Bob, thanks for the little push, I needed it at this time. Get ready for this trip, and some good tapas and sangria

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

3 Things

"To reach a port we must sail, sometimes with the wind and sometimes against it. But we must not drift or lie at anchor." -Oliver Wendell Holmes

I was recently given this quote and have found it useful to recite to myself. There have been a few times over the past few months where it seemed easiest to just accept my fate by just living the rest of my life in a wheelchair. I just don't have it in me to quit pushing though. But it does seem to get harder each time I feel that way. To keep telling myself not to get complacent (drift) or stop altogether (lie at anchor). So just as I keep pushing through I want to encourage everyone to remember the above quote for your life. Sometimes life is easy (with the wind) nd sometimes hard (against the wind) no matter what just keep going. Here re the three most important things in my life that have kept me going: my family, my friends, and my faith. I believe if you allow those three things to play important roles in your life then you can get through anything.

Update: I will be going back too see my nuerologist soon, and will probably at that time do some more tests and seeI just keep where to go from there. As for physical progress, I keep standing everyday and strengthening my legs. Keep the prayers and positive thoughts coming, and messages are nice too.