Wednesday, March 14, 2012


I wrote a book, and now what? I am in the process of taking care of many things before the book is released. For one, the book has to be printed. There are changes to be made to the e-book. I was dealing with what the cover would look like. Thankfully someone else was creating that for me. I am dealing with the website. Again, thankful someone else is doing that. I had to figure out a release date. There have been so many things on my plate to do. I still have many things to accomplish beforehand . After all of this is completed and out of my hands starting to work on my second book is next on the docket. I have all of this going on and today I took a moment to reflect on my journey. I realize that people are going to read my book. What if it sucks? What if they love it? I really have a feeling of being nervous. When writing the book I thought about this. It's been so far removed from my mind during this time. There is nothing I can do now. This book was my journey and good for me to release and shared with the world. That doesn't remove the fear though. Let's see what you think.

Tuesday, March 06, 2012

Love birds

Emily and I went out for a movie this weekend. It had my movie star crush in it. She was her typical hot self. In the movie she played a role similar to that in Along Came Polly. It was an enjoyable movie. After that we went out for dinner. At dinner I had some shrimp and lobster, which was a nice combo to have. After finishing dinner we decided to get some dessert. A thick chocolate chip cookie with icecream. I don't know about you, but just writing this I'm getting hungry! :-) While sitting there I noticed a couple of love birds. The girl was giving her man spoonfuls of dessert. As we are in love with each other, that was too much for us. But wait that girl was Emily and that man was me. I had started feeling like crap and I couldn't make it from the plate to my mouth anymore. As a side note I think I had an allergic reaction to the lobster. I didn't use to be allergic to lobster. But I digress. This was the first time in public Emily had to feed me. That sucked, but surprisingly I didn't care what the other people thought. I saw growth in the area of not caring what others thought. Thank you Emily for doing that. This journey has had many ups and downs. That was a twofer for me.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Broken silence

I've been rather quiet on here for the past number of months. I have been focused on the publishing of my first book and everything involved with that. I have had this thought many times before, but really felt like putting it down on here. I am so happy with my lot in life! Although I'm in a wheelchair and at home alone with my thoughts I still have an outlet to release those thoughts. I may be disabled and have many challenges, but I refuse to be kept down and and kept from showing people disabled or not they can do it. Whatever IT is. I can't type so well with my hands, so I use my voice. I wrote a book.. Don't get me wrong, things are tough and I definitely have moments of despair and freak outs. With determination you can do whit ever you put your mind to do. There are my two cents on pushing the crap life has thrown your way and still moving forward.

Wednesday, November 09, 2011

Manuscript and Dad

I'm kind of in a holding pattern right now. My manuscript is finished and the arm work in preparimg for the publication process has been done. I am waiting for my four rusted confidants to finish their read throughs. Once they get back to me I will be able to tidy things up and be ready to get my book copyrighted. That is a 3 to 4 month process. That will give me some time to get things ready for the future like my website and such. Thank God for my good friend Bob and Dragon NaturallySpeaking. I never could have written a book.

Last Friday I went shopping with my mother-in-law. My main focus for a purchase was some new boots. I wanted to get some easier boots for Emily to put on me. I had done some research and figured the kind with the zipped sides would be easiest. We went to the store I had picked out and got the boots. They were cowboy boots, but I really liked them regardless. My dad always wore cowboy boots too. I know he is looking at me and smiling. Finally, I got my boy to see the light is what he's thinking. I wore the boots out last night and I kept feeling his presence near me. I must say that I like cowboy boots now.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

STL & Handi Love

This past weekend was our 2nd anniversary and we went down to St. Louis with no set plans, but to relax and enjoy our time together. We couldn't have asked for a more beautiful weekend. It was nice being outside and able to roll to most destinations. It was nice going out for a nice candle lit dinner on Saturday. Going out for coffee a couple of times was relaxing, though I wanted to try a new drink -- a salted caramel mocha. They were out of the salt, that was the intriguing part. So I settled for my usual skim latte. While getting our coffee drinks we found out there then October is disability awareness month. I had no clue there was even such a thing. So show a handi some love!

OK, I know I've been really quiet on my blog. I do have stuff to say, I've just been so consumed with my book. I'm getting down to the nitty-gritty. At they have written a little preview on the book here. So check it out.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Permanent and Temporary

I've tried to be very vulnerable and honest on my blog. I just had a moment of frustration and thought that I should blog about it. I was feeling kind of weak, which seems to be the case lately. In my moment of despair/frustration I yelled at God. "I'm only 32!"In that moment I wished I wasn't here having to struggle with everything. That would just be a permanent fix to a temporary problem. Having those moments is rare for me, but they are a reality. I'm sure that others have felt that same frustration/desperation. As I've been able to snap out of it, I hope the same for you. Having this outlet really helps me.

Monday, August 22, 2011


I've thought about this post for some time. About a month ago I saw how close I was to finishing the book and started stressing out about everything I still had to do. About that time we started talking about having a kid. I became so stressed out. Some really good stuff, and I started to freak out. Over the last month I found a comfort level with these things. Ya, the end is nearing for the book project that has been in the works for five years. I became excited and stressed. My excitement wanted to get things done right away and that stressed me out thinking about all I had to do to be a published author. I soon realized that I needed to just relax and do things slowly and correctly to make sure I put out a great product. With that peace about the book came peace about having a kid.The other day in fact I was thinking about having a kid and I put in my voice recorder about that desire. So now these two things that were weighing heavily on me are no more. They will both come about at the right time.